Posted by frida on July 9, 2006, at 12:49:37
In reply to Re: child abuse - *warning* giving up?, posted by Tamar on July 7, 2006, at 15:30:56
Dear Tamar,
Hi, thank you so so much for your post and sharing with me.
I don't quite know how to handle this feeling I have in between sessions and constantly, it is affecting me at work. I feel as if I were right in the middle of that situation, and every time I see my T I view that as my chance to tell and let go and when I can't, I feel as back then, as if I had to come back to "it" alone.
It makes me cry a lot at night and then when I see my T I can't even tell how I feel. She says that for her it is as though I had lost all right to talk about myself, my feelings and to share them.
We've talked about all the possible reasons why I can't yet, about this pact of being silent always, my mother's role in all of this and how she still doesn't approve, my fear that he'll come and get me (Impossible because he died), my fear of not being able to control it...I just don't know - I feel huge need to break the silent after so many years and it scares me. I told her that one of my fears is to keep this inside of me forever and get used to it and be like..dead inside.you are so right about what you say...that I need to do something to save myself as soon as possible :-(
Thank you for sharing this. She has truly proved to me I can trust her, I will try to hang on to that...
Thank you ,
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