Posted by B2chica on June 7, 2006, at 8:27:47
In reply to acting out big time (sex trigger), posted by wishingstar on June 6, 2006, at 18:34:27
i don't know if diagnosis or meds have anything to do with it. but something about your post hit me.
sometimes actions like these are a result of uncontrollable impulses. being very impulsive. not thinking of what the results would be or consequences all that a person could concentrate on is the act.
it sounds a little like that. and i bring up diagnosis because two come to mind, some form of bipolar and borderline personality disorder. these both have episodes of extreme impulsivity.the way you described even your thoughts about it seemed quite removed. this is not normally healthy in that it can in fact lead you to do things without considering consequences...however, one thing that is quite clear is that you are Very aware of all this. you are aware of your 'unusual' thoughts, or desires to act but infact consiously choose to not act. this is very positive.
i don't have too much to add. but i wanted to let you know that although it may seem unusual what you have talked about, i have actually heard it before. it is not that uncommon. especially from someone with a background of neglect.
but i am very glad to hear you talked to your T about it. the only thing i'm a bit concerned about is whether or not your T grasps how bothering this is to you. i think it's important that you bring this up again.until then, maybe really explore your thoughts instead of being ashamed of them. (maybe not the right word). but in a safe place, maybe play something out in your head, what part of it would you enjoy, getting a guy, doing the guy, afterwards...any consequences? you'd be suprised what can come out when you start to explore.
please be good to yourself. and be proud of yourself that you ARE under control, that you are aware of consequences, that you aren't really going to do this. that what you have are thoughts...maybe even desires. these are nothing to be ashamed of. explore them and try to understand them.
take care wishingstar.
b2c.
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