Posted by fairywings on January 22, 2006, at 10:27:22
In reply to Re: T said to keep depression as long as I want it, posted by daisym on January 22, 2006, at 0:47:51
Hi Daisy,
Okay, I'm confused again. He told me to fake it, but he also told me I need to be around people and talk about how I feel, but then he also said that people would start to isolate from me in order to not be hurt if I started to drain them. I do fake it, so I don't drain people, and I isolate bec. I'm not comfortable right now.
With this depression I don't feel like I can't be honest in therapy. He might understand, and he might be challenging me because he doesn't want me to be stuck, but when he does that I just feel like it's not okay, then guilty. I never thought about changing again, but I guess if I can't be honest, I shouldn't be there. And if he can't do therapy the way he thinks he should then maybe it's not a good fit. I'd hate to switch again. I don't think I could do that.
I can pretty much guarantee he won't call me. I don't think the T's from their office call ppl back unless it's some kind of emerg. My ex T never called even when I left messages. My pdoc does if I'm having a med problem.
I can only compare how I feel right now to post partum depression and the depression I had when my meds were off. It's somewhere in between. I think the depression is a combination of things that have been building, and facing up to some of it. Lack of accomplishment and feeling failure, feeling paralyzed, trapped, guilty, and angry. It's gotten to a hopeless, useless, what's the point, numb place.
thanks daisy,
fw
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