Posted by annierose on December 2, 2005, at 13:19:10
In reply to Re:trigger -- really long » antigua, posted by daisym on December 2, 2005, at 12:48:46
Hi Daisy -
I'm feeling for you right now. I know that needing to talk to try to make some sort of sense of things.
I brought in some of this tread into my session today (something you wrote), hope that is okay. She did remark that "sounds like you have a lot of the same feelings" and then she quoted parts of the post that resonated with her about me.Although we experienced different types of abuse, neglect ... label it "hurt" ... our family dynamics seem similar too. The family operates as if it is a functioning, caring, loving family. But we were different Dasiy. My therapist refers to me as the "truth seeker". And I upset the balance. I make them uncomfortable. As a child, I of course didn't understand why I didn't have a loving mother, one that actually wanted to spend any sort of time with her children. I assumed it was me.
My T remarked yesterday how far I have come since the beginning of the summer. And the first thought that popped into my head was "babble". The support and insight I gain here, gives me the courage to bring up and talk about these delicate issues.
A smile moment in therapy today ... I said something very difficult and hard, and there was this gapping silence afterwards. I finally said, "This is the part where you are supposed to say some reassuring things to me."
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