Posted by annierose on November 30, 2005, at 17:14:34
In reply to Unconscious Seduction - long, posted by daisym on November 30, 2005, at 0:50:26
I know how painful those loving feelings can be in therapy (and mind you, I do see a female T). I think the only answer, is to keep the dialogue going. Talk and talk and talk until it feels settled, and that, I think, takes a long long time. You are much further along than I. I do feel I do share so much. Just not enough.
I love your comment "It feels like a secret smile tucked inside my heart." I feel the same way. When I'm just walking to my car I can think of her and feel her mental hug around my shoulders.
I know it sounds weird, but I do feel this is how my daughter feels about me. I always try to experience these types of feelings as a child would feel about their mother.What's interesting is at the same time you wrote you were missing him, you called to cancel a session. A part of you is conflicted, the adult Dasiy?
I have a hard time expressing these longing feelings because intellectually, I know I really don't want her to be my "real" friend. I really don't want to know ALL about her (why ruin my perfectly good illusion?). I just feel like I want to be closer to her. My T recently described these feelings as a "glorious love affair" but yet, it's so painfully hard. A real contradiction of sorts and my brain cannot figure it out.
Sorry Daisy, I'm not much help. I just know how parts of you are feeling right now.
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