Posted by gardenergirl on September 8, 2005, at 23:13:27
In reply to Re: One of those therapy moments...kinda long » gardenergirl, posted by terrics on September 6, 2005, at 7:29:43
> Hi gg, Your experience seems so 'real',like at that moment you connected with your T. Do think this connection will strenghten your relationship and your ability to talk freely with him?
Hi terrics. Yes, it did feel very real, very honest, and very much like mutual respect. I do think it helps, because I know that it's okay to ask him something that might look like I am upset with him about something.
Although, in my session this week, I was just at such a loss for what to talk about. This is very very weird for me. Usually I can eventually get started with something. I could just feel myself sit there, not knowing what to say and feeling kind of flat and disconnected.
I finally laughed and asked him what he wanted to talk about. For once he actually answered. I had described how I was feeling a twinge of sadness "aroudn the edges", but the edges of WHAT, I didn't know. He suggested that perahps there was something "right here" (meaning in the room between us) to talk about. And after more spinning around talking about a jumble of things that didn't really make sense to me, I finally came out with telling him how I long to be held physically by someone who I feel so comfortable with emotionally. Namely, someone like him.
I laughed, though, because I had my gym shoes on that day, which I never wear. I called them my "runaway shoes" since I must have "known" I was going to approach a "runaway" topic. :)
So at any rate, he seemed to understand what I was saying, and I was so surprised this came out of my mouth. So I must have at least felt like it was okay to say this to him, and I could trust that I'd get an honest answer. Of course it was nearly the end of the session, so I didn't get much of a response other than him seeming to understand.
P.S. Are you still persuing your career?
Yep! Hopefully I'm entering the home stretch! Thanks for asking.
gg
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