Posted by alexandra_k on September 8, 2005, at 20:17:28
In reply to Re: Difficult Times » alexandra_k, posted by cricket on September 8, 2005, at 19:51:43
> But then again today when I tried to replay his words again, there really wasn't enough heat on his part for it to be true anger. It was cold. More like contempt. That makes me feel worse.
okay... i'm thinking... this might be projection. you might be projecting your worst fears onto him. you might be worried that he sees you the way you are most afraid that you might be. that wasn't so very clear.... i just mean that you feel unworthy of his care and attention and feel contemptable etc etc and are afraid that that is what you are and the thought that he (as someone you are starting to care about when you aren't feeling numb as a defence) might see you that way... and thats what hurts. because you worry that that is how you really are inside.
does that make any sense?
and i think...
that if that does make sense...
then that might be worth talking about.
> I know I'm being muddled. I have to think some more.> How are you doing Alex? Not much chance to read posts this past week.
hmm. hmm. up and down. well... down this week mostly. but things are looking up as of today :-)
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