Posted by cricket on September 8, 2005, at 19:51:43
In reply to Re: Difficult Times, posted by alexandra_k on September 8, 2005, at 18:27:12
> sometimes... i can't bear the thought that someone is angry with me. clinicians especially... i really don't want them to be angry at me. i get afraid of that. not sure why...
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> is some of that going on maybe?I think it is. But I don't know why either. What's the worst that his anger could do? He would abandon me? That doesn't feel so terrible.
I think it's something else.
I know that rationally he would never physically hurt me and even the littles ones have never really feared that.
So why so afraid of his anger?
I think it's something about denying my reality.
But then again today when I tried to replay his words again, there really wasn't enough heat on his part for it to be true anger. It was cold. More like contempt. That makes me feel worse.
I know I'm being muddled. I have to think some more.
How are you doing Alex? Not much chance to read posts this past week.
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