Posted by pinkeye on July 12, 2005, at 17:10:10
I have always had some problem throughout my life.. All along, all the people I dealt with, were way above me throughout.. Like, they had more status, better connections, more prestigious family background, etc.
I didn't have this problem when I was in my hometown, but once I came to college in a different town, and ever since after that, all my best friends/people who I end up with closely are all from very prestigious families..
My best friend's family is full of millionaires, and people from Oxford and Standford and GSB and they are all vice presidents and directors and millionaires.. I had anohter close friend, his family was full of ph D s and top notch people. Many of my friends have relatives all over the world.. And even my ex T, was from a very prestigious family himself. I used to feel such a low person when I spoke to him.. I always had to accommodate his time pressures and other commitments, and I always felt, I mattered the least to him amongst his other high priority people and issues.. Not always, and actually many times I forgot he was such a VIP, but sometimes when he didn't reply, I always used to attribute it to him being such a VIP and me being such a social zero..
And in my work, everyone else is highly qualified than me.. They are all pretty much from Ivy Leagus schoold and have much more netwokring skills, and everybody is so very fancy..
I am tired of putting up with people who are always much higher than me.. There is always some kind of pressure and I am always the "low girl" so to speak..
I wish I don't have this problem.. But to do that, I would have to sacrifice my job and take a job in a more normal company. I am right now in one of the Top most companies in the world.. and it is not helping. There is just way too much pressure.. Everybody around me has a patent, has a masters from Stanford/Cornell/MIT/ and it is really pulling my self esteem quite down.. But I don't want to settle for a company which is worse just for the sake of it.. And performance wise, if I put in some dedication, I really perform well.. I have been doing well again these past 2 months, and everybody is praising my contribution.. so that is not so much the question.. But the pressure is really high..
Any advice on how to deal with this??
poster:pinkeye
thread:526801
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