Posted by Shortelise on July 4, 2005, at 13:01:11
In reply to Re: Still torn - longish » Shortelise, posted by fallsfall on July 4, 2005, at 8:46:33
Falls, tranference, ARGH!!
Excruciating. Yes.
I am so convinced he is different. But I don't know how to express it. That's the hardest part. He is no longer on my side, that's how it feels, and if he wants concrete examples, I can't give them because I blank out, my mind just goes thoroughly blank. I feel questioned, on the spot, doubted?
Again and again in my life I have been told that what I preceive is not reality. My Mom is the queen of lies - she cannot face her own feelings, so says she feels one thing when in reality she feela another. There was always the need to figure out what was behind the words. So when he tells me he has not changed, and I perceive that he has, it makes me crazy.
Thanks, falls. I will try. I will go and I will try.
ShortE
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