Posted by Fallen4MyT on January 11, 2005, at 17:22:48
In reply to Re: Called T - VERY, VERY BAD, posted by Skittles on January 11, 2005, at 9:27:25
Skittles I totally GET IT and have talked to my T on wanting to die he casually asked me if I had any plans I said no I just wish I just didn't exist I am not big on suffering and blah blah <insert my boring chatter>...and the net effect of that was he knew what I meant when I said that any time after that. I mean I eat healthy I execise 2 hours a day most days..I am not suicidal BUT IF IF God said I could just go to sleep and not wake up and say maybe change places with someone else who would have died I would do it gladly. I GET IT....Maybe explain that to your T that you have no active plans even say you will give it to her in writing and it may mellow her..good luck.
> See, now I'm even wishing I hadn't been completely honest here because everyone seems to be getting hung up on the self-harm aspect of it. Am I the only one who sees a very distinct difference between wanting death and actually being willing to cause it to happen?
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> The reason I called her was mainly because I could not seem to recover from our session earlier in the day. I think that, by not looking at her, I missed out on a lot of soothing. I was hoping to get some of that by speaking with her again. I was hoping that by hearing her voice again, I would be more settled and able to calm down emotionally.
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> Ugh, I am so frustrated. Confused now about whether I have a right to feel as I do. Not sure I can even talk to her without feeling stupid.
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