Posted by fallsfall on June 17, 2004, at 7:08:30
In reply to Re: Rock vs Hard Place, posted by tabitha on June 17, 2004, at 0:38:57
I feel for you, Tabitha. You are in such a hard place. I wish I could help...
Have you considered a consultation? You could to go see a different therapist (or maybe your pdoc?) and explain the situation. Someone who is outside of the situation might be able to help you focus on what is going on (is this transference hell, is she incompetent, is this one of those things you need to work out (and how can you do that?), what is the underlying (overarching?) issue).
I did a consultation when I was in a state like yours and it was wonderfully grounding. I was able to see an old group leader (who I hated as a group leader, but she was great individually). Is there any therapist type person who you have seen in the past who you connected with at all? Someone in a hospital? I'm sorry - I can't think of where you might have run into other therapists. I've seen a bunch in my time - I'm hoping you have, too. Maybe when your therapist was on vacation you saw someone else?
I found an independent consultation was really valuable. Please consider it.
I worry that you cancelled your session. I completely understand about needing to get away from it, but I worry that cancelling will just prolong your agony.
You have passed through hell periods in therapy before. You have fought through them. You need to fight through this. Maybe I'm just projecting, because I'm in such hell myself. Please don't give up.
Wishing you the best,
Falls.
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