Posted by tabitha on June 18, 2004, at 0:38:28
In reply to Re: Rock vs Hard Place » tabitha, posted by fallsfall on June 17, 2004, at 21:57:59
I didn't mean it was the same as a consultation, I just meant that was the only 'professional' opinion I'd sought, well, I realize it was semi-professional. I just got off the phone with said friend/therapist and it seems like he's trying to date me. Which might be OK except he's older than my dad, and has a long history of unhealthy relationships with women.
I'm going to hang onto this idea of getting a consultation as the most rational idea for getting through this. I'm just kinda nuts right now. Maybe I'm calling these 'friends' because I feel so humiliated over the issue of not having friends. So I endured one very uncomfortable phonecall yesterday, and now I've got a date with a senior. Or are these healthy coping strategies? I'm going nuts trying to analyze myself.
Can I just say UGh! It hurts! It's that same old pain, that used to come up for me in romantic breakups, now I've got it safely located in a 'healthy dependency', but it's just worse pain, stronger dependency. I did not have sexual/romantic feelings for her, so I did not realize I was so attached.
I need to call that guy and cancel. What an odd time to try and hit on me. How awful that I've attracted that.
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