Posted by kara lynne on September 18, 2003, at 2:06:11
In reply to Re: Less confused now. fallsfall, posted by ridesredhorses on September 17, 2003, at 22:52:22
Thank you! It's interesting, because I fully intended to go one more time, but I really had something come up right at that time, and we are having a hard time rescheduling. I am considering giving up the 'one more time' approach.
Thank you for your feedback. Sometimes I feel like I'm walking around with blinders on, missing things that are right in front of me. But I guess where we're wounded we do that.
I still don't fully understand this. My pdoc (not that he's the final authority) highly recommended him and said no-one has been disappointed that he's sent them to. So of course it's easy to think I'm the problem. Maybe his approach works for some. It's not that I don't want to be told the truth--I prefer truth. That's what made me try to investigate this further--was I really coming up on some huge resistance that I needed to look at? Some sabatoging aspect of my behavior that I am missing?
But I think the bottom line turns out to be that even if that's true, I can still work it out with a different kind of therapist. At least I hope so. I must admit I'm kind of confused again over what is a breach of boundary between a therapist and a patient. I don't understand how this guy could say what he did about my prior relationship-- but at the same time say he's not condoning it. He said *maybe* it was bad conduct. MAYBE! It took me years to even acknowledge that it might have been an abuse of power because I believed everything that therapist told me at the time; all of the reasons he gave me for our relationship being 'special'. He even said not to talk about it with anyone because no one would understand. And again, he was 50, I was 24. 24, depressed, and paying him--albeit minimally. And with a past of being betrayed by the men in my family. So you tell me (not you, but You): was that 'maybe' poor conduct?
Oooh. I'm all riled again, and I have to get to sleep!
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