Posted by fallsfall on September 7, 2003, at 21:21:53
In reply to fallsfall, posted by Eggy on September 7, 2003, at 20:26:44
I understand completely about not wanting to admit being sick by taking meds. But read your original post one more time. Can you see things in the post that are not particularly healthy behavior? If you want me to point some out for you I will (and if you have trouble finding more than a couple, please ask). These behaviors tell me (and you?) that you are sick. None of us want to be sick. But ignoring it doesn't make it go away. If you knew a diabetic who didn't take their insulin, would you think that they didn't have diabetes anymore? No, you would just worry about them because they would be getting sicker.
I don't want to have to worry about you. If you take your meds now, and go to your day group, and get hooked up with a therapist, and work really hard then you'll get better (I truly believe this). Once you are better, THEN you can decide if you need to continue the meds. In the meantime, not taking them makes it harder for you to get better.
Suicide is very scary. Unfortunately, suicide is something that us Borderlines do. We do that until we learn other ways to cope. You and I are at risk. I have had my best friends attempt suicide (and come dangerously close). I have sat next to their hospital beds worrying if they will make it. I am so glad that you don't want to follow that route. You (and I) have to work hard to avoid that. We need to take our meds, and go to therapy and work so, so hard.
I'm glad that you went for the assessment. That was a big step in taking care of yourself and getting on the road to being healthier. I hope your group starts soon.
There is no shame in being Borderline (though we do have a lousy reputation). YOU didn't do anything to get this way. Probably you are a little predisposed to it, and things happened while you were growing up that made it hard to learn effective ways of coping. But YOU will need to recover from it - noone can do that for you.
Please keep in touch
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