Posted by Eggy on September 5, 2003, at 23:10:15
I pushed 1 too many times. I am so stupid. I feel like dying or killing someone. Once before I told my therapist I was going to quit coming to him. I did cancel 1 appointment. Now he is going to be gone for 2 weeks and I flipped when he told me. I did it again. I told him I was going to change therapist. I called his office and they told me he said if I cancelled any appointments he would not see me anymore. Ever. I would have to find a new therapist. And like some stupid know it all jerk I said "He doesn't want to see me anyway" and said cancel them. I also cancelled my appointments with my pdoc. I have been seeing this therapist for 2 years. 2 years! I am so stupid. He was awesome and I had to go and mess up my life again. I hate myself so much. I am dying now. truly dying. I left him but he left me for good. He is the only person in the whole world I trusted. Now I killed it. I hate myself.
poster:Eggy
thread:257482
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