Posted by muffled on December 3, 2010, at 13:29:43
In reply to Re: blocked » muffled, posted by Dinah on December 3, 2010, at 12:57:47
yeah, its the mostly happy, more-medium I am looking for...
I find it too heavy here.
Which is why I am not here anymore.
But that makes me sad, cuz i so enjoyed so many of the people here.
But then there was trouble, and I am afraid I am not one to stand by! I am always the one who wades into the thick of it and tries to help.
I am the interefering Mom on the playground.
I am the Mom who reports kids I am concerned about to administration.
I am the one who calls the cops and follows impaired drivers, prepared to try and stop them if need be....
I can't stand by and see what is in "My" (apparently exalted...to me anyways ;-)) opinion cruel, or unfair.
Why do I keep comming back? VERY good question.
I think because, until the reality of Bobs behaviours finally sunk in, I was blissfully ingnorant(ah there's that word!) and kept thinking surely Bob will listen. But he didn't, so I had to leave.
But this place was like family to me. The people very very very real indeed. I cared deeply about them. The cared about me. It was like a home, like family. And me, I am faithful like a dog(hence while I am still married to my H, when 99.9% of women would have left him LONG ago). I don't lightly give up on a strong friendship.
So, I wander back, ever hoping things might be different, that maybe I can connect again.
But it hasn't changed.
Still the same, same reasons I can't be here.
But I keep hoping.....
:(
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