Posted by Estella on August 8, 2006, at 4:02:07
In reply to Re: Okay. All right. Thanks for the hugs., posted by susan47 on August 7, 2006, at 11:42:50
((((((susan))))))))) i love you sweetie, thanks so much for helping me through this
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i wrote last night and wrote and wrote and wrote and took a valium and slept no problem and got up feeling much better (yay for long half life!!!). mustn't make a habit of it, but i think that is precisely the kind of situation where i should take it rather than getting more and more wound up.supervisor situation is a little odd... we have a panel of between 3 and 5. have three at the mo and i'll get another when he changes universities later in the year :-). basically... i wasn't so sure on who i wanted to be my main supervisor between x and y. i was liasing with z and when i arrived he said 'i'll just put myself down as your supervisor unless you have other thoughts and you can change it whenever you like'. i was always planning on changing it. don't get me wrong, he is great to have on a panel (it is jolly hard to get anything through him) but very much a person to give that final draft to rather than that first copy.
had a chat to x today... he was slightly reassuring. crossed out a lot, but still slightly reassuring. helped me get clearer on structure and stuff so it is going ahead now. i explained a little more too... said that i wasn't used to talking off my head and what worried me was that i'd get anxious and freeze up and wouldn't be able to say anything. he accepted that okay. he did. didn't make a derogatory remark or a joke or anything. so... paper it is. and i've done the first 1/3 to 1/2 okay and i'll have another late one tonight and another late one tomorrow and it will be okay :-)
daunting because there are specialists on the topic going to conference. so there is a realistic worry about my not making an *ss of myself, not writing something that is too basic (yawn), not misunderstanding the issues (i've just started on the topic), not saying anything in a condescending tone about the other issues that i don't care about that they are all wound up about.
um... i might not have an issue at all. that is a genuine worry. nobody has really written very much about this particular aspect i want to deal with and it might well be... there is a good reason for that. some say it is brute and there is nothing to be said in the way of explanation. others say there isn't a problem just a verbal dispute.
but... i'm doing it. and x was great. and so it is good, it is okay. and z seemed rather surprised that i'm going to be doing somehting and mhah ha ha he is going to see how much work i can crank out when i have a deadline!!!
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it is going to be okay.
thanks susan
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poster:Estella
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