Posted by susan47 on August 7, 2006, at 22:41:53
In reply to Re: Empty, posted by Joan797 on August 7, 2006, at 7:04:56
I'm a victim too but I'm a victim of my own f*cking mind, darling. As are you. Don't you get it? You're doing this to you, nobody is making you do this nobody is holding a gun to your head saying feel Bad about yourself, you Don't Deserve anything better, Honey, You Made This Bed Now You Have To Lie In It. You're calling yourself a victim. Clearly, you made this happen. Yeah you can make it different.
Don't you just f*cking HATE it when people say stuff like that? Doesn't it just drive you insane? It drove me Nuts to Realize, that I was different from the rest of the sane world. Nuts. I hated it and I hated me and I Still Cannot Understand Why In The Name of God, Am I The Only Person Hurting Like This? Why am I bleeding silently all over the floor, the walls, the mirrors ...
everything has my blood on it.
Everything. Nobody bled more than I did. You know that Joan, I've explained it. I don't remember a response. I don't remember hearing back from you when I told you Exactly How Hard it was .. and I wish I were talking about a certain gorgeous male's C*ck .. but we're not .. we're not and I never will be, I will Never be Allowed to Have what I Really, Really and Truly, Desire.
The Most.
In my life.
Short as it is, short as they all are. Damn.
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