Posted by Joan797 on August 7, 2006, at 7:04:56
In reply to Empty, posted by Joan797 on August 6, 2006, at 0:16:13
It's really about how we as women who are generally the caregivers have been transfered into working mothers who have no time to shave ourlegs because when we get home from work we have to cook supper, clean the house from the messes everyone has made during the day while we were gone, put up salsa and spagetti sauce from our deceased father's garden because it is somehow a piece of them that still remains and we know that we are doing what he wanted.
We aren't supposed to mourn for more than a few weeks after we lose a parent because that means we arent' giving them our undivided attention. We are supposed to pull ourselves up by our bra straps, buckup and get over it because we have a family to take care of.We are lost empty shells by the time we are 40 and if we try to improve ourselves by new haircuts or a new pair of pretty shoes we are trying to get above ourselves and are sometimes put back in our places with a resounding mind slap.
We are often expected after a hard day and evening of working to simply open our arms and our legs so that we may be f*cked again and this time we are supposed to enjoy it.
We aren't supposed to have fun because that means we are acting childish.
We arent' supposed to have friends who are single because that means we are trying to act like them or they are trying to influence us to be single as well.
We aren't supposed to want anything different from the life we have because that makes us selfish.
So we are players in a play that describes the life they want us to play. We pretend we are okay, we pretend we like it, we pretend we are happy,,,,,,,,,,,,until we can't pretend anymore and then we are done.
We are empty and we are done.
We are nobody then.
Everything inside us, every little bit of selfness has been sucked out of us until we are ampty and done.
poster:Joan797
thread:674169
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