Posted by Joan797 on August 7, 2006, at 6:50:52
In reply to Re: Empty, posted by susan47 on August 6, 2006, at 2:16:00
I am empty because I have given everything I have inside to people and get nothing in return.
But I'm told that I think "it's all about me"
I had to take a job that barely pays the payments I'm required to make in this houseold and have nothing left for gas money to get to the job.
I am told that I waste money on wine and cigarettes.
I hate my husband for all the mind f*cks he has given me.
I am empty from trying to give him reasons for why I am hurt and not being able to make him understand or care enough to change his ways.
I am empty because I can't love anymore.
My soul is empty.
My heart is empty.
My body is empty.
My world is empty and there is no reason for me to be in it.
I am told that I am loved, but not shown, and therefore realize that I am not.
I call and leave messages with friends and loved ones and no return calls come in.
I am so empty inside that I can't get out of bed.
I am depressed beyond reason and I can't get stop feeling like a waste. I've wasted my life, and I waste the day, dont' get enough done, don't feel happy ever, I don't dream anymore. I don't fantasize anymore. I have nothing to look forward to, no hope of anything getting better.
I've lost both my parents now and don't have any security feeling anymore.
Empty.
Lost.
Hopeless.
poster:Joan797
thread:674169
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