Posted by muffled on April 17, 2006, at 22:45:47
In reply to Re: Hey you, you ok!!!! » muffled, posted by special_k on April 17, 2006, at 20:34:27
> mmm. mebee we just needed a little attention and tlc...
***yeah, maybe. :-(
> yeah. i'd feel better for getting into my thesis lol. no pressure in particular (yet) but investment now will help things along later. we have a big dept. i'm not used to hanging in a group of like 15 people per time... goign out to dinner and stuff...
***yeah, I would find that REALLY hard. Don't like large groups of people AT ALL. I admire that your able to do this.
> feel more relaxed around the physicists... except when i actually talk to them about what they are doing... and a chemist too... now why would you want to study phosperous and arsenic for??? interesting the different takes on the moral responsibility of scientists... interesting...***LOL! Never thot of talking to physicists!!!!
> what is the chewing?
> a gnawing feeling inside of you?
> like your stomach trying to work when there isn't anything inside?
> i dunno...
> (i liked that)
> :-)
***ROFL!!!!!!!!!!
Naw, the chewing is sort of that i can never be totally at peace. Something is gnawing away inside me mentally, and I can ignore it for awhile, but I don't know what it is, and it never totally goes away. And it builds until I goto release the pressure in unhealthy ways.> thanks muffled. yeah sometimes i think that is what i need to do. walk away from the computer and go outside. go sit in the park or something. go to a movie. that is more of an option now. i'm lucky to be living on campus
***yeah, thats sounds good.
> not too many homeless people. they built the subsidised housing (income based so free in some instances) right in town. thought that was nicer for them. closer to buses and stuff. one of the post docs was saying he likes that 'cause it gives him some entertainment at night > most of them seem to be mentally ill (pronounced delusions / hallucinations)
> it is kinda sad.***Yeah, kinda sad, but not all bad. Lotsa them are not that sad, mostly some are lonely, and they don't like it when people try and pretend they don't exist.
They are people. They are where they are for a myriad of reasons. Addiction, mental health issues, health issues, or just what life has thrown at them....>
> i'm not so used to that... well... maybe i kinda am. community mental health used to be in town back where i was from. and people used to hang round town before / after their appoitments. they used to busk. i'm used to singing and people trying to sell crayon drawings and stuff. making your name out of a bit of wire etc. but not so used to someone sitting next to a tin yelling out whether people can spare their change :-(***We call it panning here. (short for panhandling). Some of those guys do not too badly at it.
Some of those who sleep on the street and under bridges etc. are more comfortable and feel safer there than at shelters.
Their world is different and can be harsh, but not all is bad. There is moments of joy too.
People who literally got nothing to lose, got no reason to smile.........when you smile at them and they smile back..........its so beautiful and wonderful to me.
They are special to me, scabs and all.***But for the grace of God, I'd be there myself. Or more likely I'd be long dead by now.....
Take care,
Muffled
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