Posted by sunny10 on October 10, 2005, at 11:38:16
In reply to Re: Beloved Susan » Susan47, posted by AdaGrace on October 8, 2005, at 19:56:15
so much of what you wrote was so true for me that I just had no more to add...
The hardest thing for me to act upon is to unlearn the need for love. Once we learn something from our society, it is very hard to ignore it... some things are just harder to disbelieve than others, I guess.
What I AM working hard on is living for the moment. We DON'T know what happens next... should I be in a state of waiting (for the axe to fall, for a better afterlife, whatever) or should I be living the life I have right now? I think I need to live the life I have now- whether I am doing it wrong or not is really up to me. My opinion of myself should be the one that matters most- as long as it is rooted in reality and not guilt feelings, or depressive low self-esteem, that is!!
The only thing I'm not doing at the moment that I want to do is travel... but I am saving up my money to make a big move. Either to Texas or to Hawaii- both are on the table at the moment... and then I can save up some MORE money to go visit my wonderful friend, Susan47!!!
(((((((((((((MMMMMMMMMWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH)))))))))
to you both!
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