Posted by damos on June 6, 2005, at 1:59:05
In reply to Re: (((Damos))), posted by alexandra_k on June 5, 2005, at 22:51:57
> I'm feeling much much much better today :-)
Well I am very glad to hear it :-)> I took yesterday off.
Given that it was Sunday, that seems a fair thing to have done.> Went round to my mates
> Got high
Never done that. Afraid it would push me over the edge or unleash something evil and horrible.> Went grocery shopping and got all sorts of necessities like chocolate and ice-cream
Absolute necessities =0)> Got some new sneakers (my old ones were so worn down at the heel that they were leaking)
Musta been the weekend for it, mine disintegrated too. Didn't get new ones though, hate shoe shopping> Got high
> :-)
> And then I felt better.
YAY!!!!!!!!> Wrote loads of meaningless drivel on my thesis
> (which means I'm rediscovering an interest)
Well that's gotta be good hasn't it????> And am diligently doing my marking today
Ah yes diligence. Heard of it, never actually experienced it though :-)
> (But with lots of necessary Babble breaks)
But of course.> But: I should try and remember this for next month.
> Next time I start to lose it...
> I should wonder if it is about that time.
> Just knowing that might make it more manageable.
> Like how its easier to cope with panic attacks etc if one remembers 'it is just the LSD I'll be ok in a bit'.
It just might you know. It just might. I'll have to take your word for the LSD thing ;-)
> So... Some serious repair relationship stuff is in order... Not just a card, because I'll never be able to figure out something decent to say.. I have an idea. I do.
Sorry and thank you are surprisingly often enough.
> The one t who I got on really well with was my DTB therapist for 8 months. I told her a little bit about the voices - but not much. I was scaired that they would think I was psychotic and that I'd get kicked out of DBT.
DTB/DBT, sorry Alex I don't know these guys being a therapy/therapist free zone.
> When she left she gave me this little wooden box. With a coloured bead, a little piece of crystal, a little piece of turquoise, and a little cone shaped shell inside. She said that it was a mindfulness exercise. I don't know how she meant it... But I kind of thought each bit was supposed to be one of the voices. A little bit of me. They sort of 'claimed' one each. But there was another one I never told her about. So I guess I'm the box, if that makes any sense.Yeah it does. That was a really nice thing for her to do. An explanation would have been nice but you seem to have worked it out.
> Does that sound nice?????
Yeah it does, it really does.I think whatever you do to mend the relationship will be appreciated. And that finding a way for you both to be 'there' when you're together is a good thing to try.
Take sweet girl, talk soon. Puppy sends her love
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