Posted by liliths on December 15, 2006, at 11:29:07
In reply to Re: UPDATE - sorry it's so LONG » liliths, posted by Phillipa on December 14, 2006, at 19:35:08
hi phillipa
sorry you had to go through that - it certainly doesn't sound like much fun. Scary isn't it to think how initially trusting we all are? Bet you'd do it differently now :)
when you say you're afraid of your children, I'm not sure what you mean. How they feel about you? whether they judge you?
regardless, I know, in some ways, I'm afraid of everybody these days... particularly anyone I care about as they have such potential to hurt me... I am so stressed these days it doesn't take much
be well and take care of yourself... you're worth it! :)
namaste,
lilith> Thanks yes I'm proud of my Daughter but wish I was a better Mother as this anxiety/depression has made me even afraid of my children don't ask why don't know. But he gave me the pdoc large doses of xanax, chloral hydrate, sometimes ativan. And would tell me I was taking a baby dose and chloral hydrarte was used with old people and babies. What he didn't say was it was used in some surgeries. I found out it's a substitute for alchohol and before the ch I was drinking 4-6 beers a night with .5xanax but working and doing a great job and felt good all the time.
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> The massage therapist did with me anyway naked massage with sheets. Very careful not to expose body parts. She was good. I guess it was Swedish massage never asked. I wish that pdoc had stayed the way he was but he decided when he passed his psych boards he no longet wanted to do talk therapy. And If I knew of a med I be taking it myself. But if you need klonopin who cares? Love Phillipa
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