Posted by liliths on December 11, 2006, at 13:58:09
In reply to Re: UPDATE lilith, posted by B2chica on December 11, 2006, at 12:33:51
hi b2c
thank you so much for this post! You just made my day :)
I do have all those concerns myself - particularly falling apart as this ordeal put a HUGE dent in my ability to function - feels like an awful time to be playing with meds that work fairly well when I'm in a better situation.
As I've said, I've lost so much of my motivation, confidence & self-esteem. It feels impossible at this point, even with a license, to regain the ground I lost. I can barely leave the house. I have credentials in other skills but am totally unable to go out and market myself to find work (always was my weak point!) The opportunities I had would have placed me in the position of being 'out there' and when I was in school, I believed utterly in my ability to do this work. I was a gifted therapist and it was a win-win situation for me... in order to be effective as a facilitator in the healing of others, my self-care soars, as I need to be grounded and centered. I experienced moments of sheer transcendence :)
I made a bunch of calls today to employment attys - of course, haven't spoken to anyone yet LOL
fortunately, the legal issue is that these doctors are simply not allowed to do what they're doing - and they're getting away with it because of their monopoly status with the Massage Review Board and the Dept. of Health. It will be a discrimination suit - if I have a suit. I am hoping some of these attys will meet with me without charging me as I'm totally broke. It cost me $300 to have the health law attys tell me there was nothing I could do. Plus, PRN makes you pay for all the tests yourself - so far this lovely experience has cost me $1000
and to think, if I'd simply checked 'no' on my license application, I'd actually have a license. Says something about the dangers of being honest in this society. But doing that would have also left me open to fraud charges if they had ever found out. I tend to honest by nature... just hadn't a clue the system was so unfairly stacked against me
but yes, I am aware of ALL the dangers you pointed out. I'm just as aware of the ramifications of not being licensed. Either way, it sucks... but I am hoping to get counsel before just giving in to PRN. My Review Board Hearing is January 17
in the meantime, I am looking into alternative meds - not fun!
One of the 'conditions' is that I be willing to submit to random drug tests to prove I am off all opiates. I would lose my license if I went back on them without having won the case against PRN for discriminatory practice that would allow me access to be treated by my pdoc as we see fit.
and I must tell you, I have 'authority' issues to begin with. This is simply enraging me!! To even think of submitting makes me want to just go kill myself - but I have commitments which don't allow me that option and I'm fortunately angry enough to want to see if I can do something about this before just calling it quits
oh thank you for allowing me to rant!! Truthfully, I don't want to give in but I am under pressure to at least give it a try.
I'm really hoping some atty is going to step in and help
wish me luck! I'll certainly keep updating this post
thanks again
namaste,
lilith> hi lilith
> i don't know much about the legal system but i have concerns about your 'accepting' the PRN to be able to practice. if you initially agree couldn't it come back to bite you if you sue? they could say, well she must have not needed them that badly if she was willing to give them up? (or something stupid like that)
> i would really urge you to talk to an atty asap before the committee mtg and ask them about any decision you make.
> i do understand that this is NOT an easy decision. and i think it's disgusting that you are even IN this type of position. i think what they are doing is absolutely monstrous. how can they assume to know best for you? someone they don't even know? and why is your doctor's opinion voided?
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> if you agree to them and stop current meds and start the 'med trials' again, will you even be able to work?
> and what happens if nothing else seems to work? and you have to go back on these meds, can that be proof and then they'll leave you alone? maybe they just want to see if you're willing to try to change? (not that they have a right to do this to you) but can they turn around and revoke your license at anytime? will you have to go through this again?
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> you really need an advocate i wish i knew someone that could help you.
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> sorry i'm not much help but i think your situation is HORRIBLE and i want you to know along with all the other wonderful babblers here you have my support as well.
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> Best WIshes to you.
> b2c.
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