Posted by liliths on December 14, 2006, at 7:39:30
In reply to Re: UPDATE RANT » liliths, posted by Phillipa on December 13, 2006, at 19:08:20
Hi Phillipa,
I never meant to imply your massage therapist was anything other than totally professional and capable - I hope you didn't think I was slamming her. Massage is a kinesthetic, intuitive blend of art and science. One only first begins their path AFTER school... when you start to study the modalities you feel drawn to and no school can give you the gift - it can only teach you the basics of how to use it. At best, you come out with a 'sampling' - it was why I was taking outside courses even as student
how cool that your pdoc was using it. I must ask though, what kind he had your therapist using? Full body swedish on a table or perhaps seated chair and for how long? I have a hard time with the idea of getting undressed at my pdoc office LOL and think doing chair massage would have been more practical as well as less invasive for some of his more skittish clients :) Actually I would personally use craniosacral - I think it would be an ideal modality prior to a consultation - and one stays dressed for it though they should be in comfortable clothes. What kind of massage does you therapist do?
I live in ormond beach. It's on the east coast, just north of daytona beach, in central florida. I'm fortunate enough to be by the ocean (the only reason I can think of for living here LOL) It IS a really tough place to earn a living however. I think of florida as an environmentally beautiful but soulless place to live. I had to sell my house to go back to school :( It killed me but I sold it low to an investor in exchange for being able to rent it. And then turned around and bought myself a motorcycle. I figured since I was losing one dream, I really shoud fulfill another. And I will say, that the reality was even better than the fantasy. I love my boy and he gets great gas mileage too :) Riding really makes me happy. But since this nightmare began, I have trouble doing many of the very things which make me feel better. Spend most of my time frozen in the house. I'm a gym rat too, totally dependent of that endorphin release LOL yet my workouts have been really sporadic and my whole self-care has plummeted. I'm trying to at least get into the gym more often. It's a world in which one has control. The very thing they're stealing from me!
I know stuart is much farther south. Did your daughter fair well during the hurricanes we had a few years ago? You sound quite proud of her and rightly so - I get the feeling you make a great mother :))
your pdoc sounds like a odd blend. On the one hand he was using massage (though you say he was really bilking the insurance companies - how sad for the rest of us!) but on the other hand you said he got you addicted to benzos
May I ask how he did that? what were you taking and and how much?
I've been on klonopin for years without any problems. Can taper down without any discomfort, though I don't know if I ever stopped entirely - though I may have for a brief period. I was cutting a lot of my meds while I was in school (except for my ADD ones and taking a lot of supplements for memory and brain function. The stress was enormous!) My wellbutrin gives me word finding difficulty which is so frustrating! I had gone down from 300 mg in divided doses a day to just 100mg once daily. I recently went back up to 200mg and I'm already having some problems
It IS amazing given the amount of evidence of how well opioids work for some people, that there is so much resistance to using them. As I stated in another post, I really believe the US has a stake in making sure we stay miserable. Studies show unhappy people spend more money, make more impulse buys
as you know, I'm having to look for new meds and what a mess I'm in! Anything even remotely promising isn't available here
yes, I did read of your fun experience with percocet. Oddly enough, I've been able to get therapeutic relief on pretty much the same dose for years. And I also stopped for a while during school to make sure it wasn't affecting my memory. It wasn't. I tends to energize and focus me on my dose. If I take more, it has the same effect but I will 'feel' the buzz as well and coming down from that, I'll get sleepy. On my dose, it's far more subtle... but definitely there
I'm still enraged by the interference! It's illegal yet it's allowed. haven't a clue what to try
I'd appreciate any suggestions. I''ve already tried MAOI's and SSRI's... even tried topomax, serzone and effexor... but this was all back when I was only trying one med at a time. I remember trying wellbutrin back then too and it not helping either so there's definitely a lot to be said for finding the right cocktail. The only meds I plan on keeping are my focalin XR and my klonopin (though they're going to attempt to take the klonopin if they can, fortunately I know my pdoc won't give in on that) It's only the hydrocodone they are demanding I stop and be drug tested to prove I am off. and good luck with that! I have no intention of not taking painkillers if I am in pain i.e.: dental, etc.. ANYTHING which gives me pain will be dealt with LOL I do remember the effexor being somewhat effective but it made me immediately anorgasmic and I was in total fear of the weight gain associated with it, so I stopped it
thanks for listening. I hope all is well with you
namaste,
lilith
> Lilith as a matter of fact my first massage with her was at my pdoc's at the time. He believed in a lot of alternative things massage being one. He wanted his patients relaxed before their appointments. He did away with them as he was bilking the insurance companies (another story) but she set up practice with another therapist in town. At the time I saw her her fees were $50/hr. Recently had one here (NC she's in too) and the price was $95/hr. Of course insurance doesn't pay . It only did when this pdoc used it. He addicted me to high doses of benzos. I'm paying for that now. My Oldest Daughter is in Stuart what part of the State are you in? She's financially doing very well a VP of a trust company. And I might add if I didn't in one of my posts to you above that when I broke my arm took my first percocet and l at bedtime for the pain. I was laughing at times. So I know it works for depression. Fat deal of ever getting on it. Love Phillipa
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