Posted by liliths on January 4, 2007, at 13:51:11
In reply to (((((((((((( lilliths ))))))))))))))), posted by happykat on January 4, 2007, at 12:53:18
oh you sweet sweet wonderful gift!!
thank you so much for your post. You can't imagine how much it means to read your words
let's see... I had 2 oriental shorthair siblings, born may 3, 1990. We lost daphne on june 1st and hannah is my survivor. She lives on my love. I almost lost her twice since her sister went. One of the only good things to come from my being such a shut-in is the attention I can give hannah. It's funny, people give up their lives to take care of ailing parents, spouses, friends when it's necessary. Nobody says it's fun. But the alternative is worse. So yes, to a major degree I am a prisoner - can't go away - this interminable period would have been much easier to bear had I been able to visit friends & places I've been missing. I'm even worried about having to go for the hearing as it will mean over 24 hours. Hannah's been able to handle overnight's before but it's been a few months and since I've sunk so low, she's become really used to having me at her beck and call.
the 3 of us were as 3 sisters :) I still miss daphne and I know hannah does too. She still sometimes gets confused and starts looking for her and accusingly looks at me as if to say "well? where IS she?" It's not hard to easily cry because we simply miss her. What I was saying earlier is that most people don't get my commitment to care for her at all.
the main photo on the opening page of my website is of hannah and at the bottom there's a small photo in memoriam of daphne
here's the link:
http://home.cfl.rr.com/lilith/I hope you enjoy the site anyway... it'll certainly tell you a lot about me and I'm going to babblemail you a link to a secret page - can only be gotten to from the various webrings it's a part of or if I 'invite' you in - I just sent it - I hope your babblemail is on LOL
I keep it secret because, as you said, some things are nobody's business. But I'm not ashamed to share it with you. Actually I started to just post it here but then thought I might feel too exposed. You can get back to the rest of the site from there - you just can't get 'to' it LOL though you have the link to the main site now anyway
and feel free to sign my dreambook if you are so inclined... just remember it's public LOL
Yes, that's exactly why I tapered the dose down. I even considered going off it but have since decided it's not necessary and would be punitive. I actually would like to go off of as many meds as possible. If this experience taught me anything, it taught me that by taking part in society's attempts to so-call 'heal' it's wounded, all I've really done is give up many of my rights as a person. I honestly believe it's best to fly as far under the radar as possible now. I've grown to hate what this country is turning into. Have even considered leaving the country but that's certainly a long way off from happening.
I'm also worried about the long term effects of being on some of these meds. Plan to post a thread asking about that as well as what I might supplement with to help and if there is even the possibility of irreparable damage. If I have to I'll stay on whatever I 'need' to
I'm sorry you had a similar experience. Was it a regression as well? You can babblemail me about it, if you prefer or you can simply tell me you'd rather not discuss it. I'll understand - TOTALLY :))
lilith loves cat people too! She has a feline nature inside her :)
tell me about happykat?
thanks again most blessed happykat!
namaste,
lilith> (((((((((((((((lilliths)))))))))))))))))
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> I'm sorry to hear that things aren't going well. I really feel bad that you've been put in this situation. But look on the bright side, maybe the hearing will go better than you think! :)
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> Your post really struck a chord with me. I have had a similar experience only I got locked up. I have always omitted it on applications too. I figure its nobody else's d*mn business. Fortunately I'm in a position where I don't have to worry about it too much, at least at the moment.
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> I'll be hoping, praying and begging the universe to guide the board to do the right thing and give you your license without conditions over the next two weeks.
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> I definitely agree with you and his office staff that all your pdoc's going to do at this point is raise more questions and red flags for the board. He needs to stay out of it, if at all possible, for now.
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> BTW, it's great that you've cut back on the hydrocodone. That's good prep in case they use PRN's recommendations. Although it SUCKS that you are being forced to abandon a clinically prescribed regimen of meds that work for you. :(
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> Happykat loves cat people! :) How old and what is your cat's name?
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> Feel better. Stay safe.
> Regards,
> happykat :)
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