Posted by Impermanence on May 21, 2004, at 18:28:29
In reply to Caper, Impermanence, posted by partlycloudy on May 21, 2004, at 16:32:38
Hi partlycloudy, as you can see from my previous post I'm getting pretty drunk and stoned now so forgive me if I go on a bit..
I usually start blacking out after the fourth day of my binge, this usually leads to terrible consequences. I think I can be strong and not drink tomorrow morning, for now I'm on my second bottle of poison and loving it!!! :(You are not a loser my friend, you are a vicim of this fucked up western world we live in. You are a beautiful human being whose just doing the best you can with the addictions you have and the suffering you've been through. You must understand though, you (like me) are taking the easy way out, we know drink is our worst enemy, and weed plays a big part in our unhappiness but yet we go for the quick fix all the same.
It takes alot of will power to just sit through the night with a take away and a dvd.
You are better than the dealers and corporations that sell you shit partlycloudy, you are stronger than you think. You like me must suffer the boredom tomorrow, it's the only way we'll ever get better.
Find something productive to do instead of getting drunk and stoned, you really have it in you to make a poor person happy (ever think of that).
We are lucky enough to be well off and able to afford to use the net every night, trust me (as I know from heroin addicted friends) it's very easy to fall into the hole and very hard to get out of.It's lovely to have a board like this and talk to others like me in tough situations, I will keep coming back here to see how you are getting on and I will share my experience with you.
Tonight I'm gonna keep drinking, I've started now so I won't stop. To be honest I couldent if I tried, had a spliff just there and I've got a grin from ear to ear so lets enjoy tonight and start again tomorrow...My thoughts are with you all, I know many of you out there are really suffering, things will get brighter, they always do some day.
Lots of love, drunk Impermanence.xxx
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