Posted by Impermanence on May 21, 2004, at 16:20:54
In reply to Re: Caper, how are you?, posted by Caper on May 21, 2004, at 10:17:55
"I miss you lots and I don't like it when you're gone but I don't care how long you have to stay in the hospital if it will make you better and not sad anymore".
That touched me Caper, you're a lucky man you know. You have a little voice that loves you. Someday he will become a big voice and I'm sure he's going to want a strong, sober dad around to guide him in this tough unforgiving world. Someone who can show him the problems you've been a victim of..
This may sound harsh but all the detox/psychiatric units in the world can't stop someone drinking unless they really want to stop drinking. You must change from within Caper.I have to confess something tonight, I bought a bottle of Pernod thinking "ahh what the hell, it's minty, it's not like vodka", I'm a shithead Caper, I'm nearly finished the bottle and stuffing mints down my gob to kill the 40% alcohol smell. I've just sadly relapsed again, I feel good for now and want more drink. This is no fucking way to live. My family are going out and I'm on the net having a drink pretending everythings o.k.... I feel like such a fucking waster right now, yet again I've proved to myself I will never change. I can't work at the moment, I can't talk to my friends, I can't go out without at least 12mg of bromazepam or a few drinks on me, I'm a mess, but with all the help and support I've got stupid me goes back to square one for a quick fix, no doubt I'll be drinking for a few days. Once I start I can't stop!!
Please don't end up like me Caper, the longer it goes on the more excuses you give yourself.
I think I'll have a cry, drink, benzo and a spliff now, I'm not on top form.Take care brother, all we can do is keep going, what else is there???
Be strong Caper, If you're drinking right now, cling virtual glasses with me, coz I'm gonna get drunk.
Take care man.
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