Posted by partlycloudy on May 21, 2004, at 16:32:38
In reply to Re: Caper, how are you?, posted by Impermanence on May 21, 2004, at 16:20:54
(((Impermanence))) I have been there so many times, my friend. It's such a slippery slope and you think one thing will make you feel better, then something else perhaps and then before you know it, you're out of your tree. I have the unfortunate habit of blacking out if I have alcohol, then apparently I call my mother and worry her to distraction. I haven't the slightest clue what I say.
I do realize that I am hiding behind these substances - alcohol and weed - and I couldn't even tell you what I am hiding from. Well, that's a lie. I don't want the world to figure out that I am a first class LOSER. Bipolar2, GAD, panic attacks, and I want the world to love me back!!?? No wonder I'm on so many meds. I don't know why or how my husband puts up with me. He keeps insisting I'm not as bad as I think I am...
If you see any spare self esteem out there, could you send it my way??
In this together with you.
pc
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