Posted by Noa on April 9, 2001, at 23:20:57
In reply to Re: I'm sorry-Noa and others, posted by Mair on April 6, 2001, at 22:14:39
Hi, Mair.
Sorry back, since I haven't been here for a while and am just getting to your post now.
I think the letting down of one's guard can be a good healing aspect of hospitalization. YOu can know that you can stop pretending to the world, at least for now, and you will be in a place that will help to keep you safe, as you let that guard down--take off the mask of "everything's fine".
The second thing is that sometimes you just need a safe place until the urgency of suicidal feelings subsides a bit.
But it does sound to me like you have become rather fatigued with putting up a good front and pretending to the world that you are fine, and for that reason, maybe hospitalization could be useful.
I think experiences vary--some good, some not so. Ask your therapist about the hospital she reccomends. What kind of treatment goes on there, etc.?
I think you just must be so weary of holding that mask up to hide your true feelings.
I am glad to hear that you feel a bit better in recent days. Keep us posted.
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