Posted by ChrisK on April 6, 2001, at 4:54:42
In reply to Re: I'm sorry-Noa and others - Willow and ChrisK, posted by mair on April 5, 2001, at 20:37:09
Mair,
Glad you are feeling a little better. I hope you feel safe where you are now. One of the biggest benefits of my hospital stays was the whole safety issue. Like Mila said I had to surrender to a certain extent so that others could take care of me when I was too depressed to take care of myself in a healthy way.
The first time I was in the hospital was after a suicide attempt. I had just spent 3 days in ICU after an unsuccesful OD attempt and was then transferred to a privately run psych hospital in our area. I spent 12 days there trying to get some perspective back in my life. It was a very relaxing atmosphere and I didn't feel any of the pressures of the outside world. My wife could visit any evening so I still had that contact.
My second stay came because I didn't feel safe anymore on the outside. I was very close to suicide again and went in to the hospital voluntarily. It was about a month after my first visit. That time my stay was 7 or 8 days.
People were always coming and going. my ward had 16 people and you did make friends with people who felt the same way you do. I found that most of the patients were there voluntarily. Also most were there for depression, anxiety, phobias, bi-polar or some combination of these.
Please consider it if you get to the point where you might hurt yourself. I'm still alive because I was able to get help.
I wish you well,
Chris
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