Posted by laural on October 24, 2000, at 20:56:20
In reply to Re: Rzip » Rzip, posted by Rzip on October 24, 2000, at 16:22:31
> Laural,
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> You know, I have to tell someone this. Sometimes, I get this image of putting a gun to the side of my temple and pulling the trigger. A fantasy really since I have never seen or touched a gun. I don't think it is necessaryily the dying that I fantasize about as much the violent action that is involved. The action of doing something destructive and violent to myself is what intrigues me.
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> -Rzip
Only you know best when this daydream threatens to become a nightmare. It seems pretty obvious to me that you might have borderline personality disorder. I don't think you sound bipolar, although OCD might be a factor--you seem to obsess a lot. Please check out this site and see if any of the symptoms apply to you--you will know in your gut, and you don't have to report back if you feel uncomfortable. I would love to continue to hear from you, but you should be aware that i can't be everything to you. I don't have all the answers. you know i heard a story about a guy who tried to kill himself with a gun and he ended up blowing off part of his face and head but didn't end up getting the part of the brain pertinent toward keeping the body alive--he was a vegatable for the rest of his life. . .take good care, laural
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