Posted by rainbowbrite on February 7, 2005, at 0:52:35
In reply to wanting motherly love, posted by QuietHeart on February 4, 2005, at 19:47:28
I used to long for a mother figure, when I was young my mother said she could nnot play that role for me and that I should go find a mother figure in someone else. Well that isn't that easy, particularly when your so young. My mother wasns't a great mother or role model, she was very screwed up in a very functioal way! she Was selective with love and I didn't seem to qualify. As a teenager I rememebr tryin to bond with females, and at times males as well probably becasue of the father presnce. My dilemma is that I have a really hard time opening up and actually letting people in so that conflicts with what I want. I have had people try to take that role but I won't let it get to close (not sure why). Im not sure when these feelings wained but I do remember looking for that mother figure. I guess one day I realized that I was wanting something that would never happen (being taken into a new family). I decided to work on my relationship with my mother. Well, thats over rated lol. Unless the other party wants it as much as you do I just don't think it works. Now that Ive lost myself in my thoughts...my point is that you are not weird, I think alot of people experience this. I don't think about finding that mother figure anymore but I think it sits dormant in the back of my mind. It is an awful feeling wanting soemthing you can't have. I am lucky that I haven't experienced any T issues with this. it sounds confusing.
I hope it helps to know you are not alone with thisrain
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