Posted by 10derheart on December 29, 2010, at 2:04:20
In reply to Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart, posted by TherapyGirl on December 27, 2010, at 18:38:20
> I just saw this post because I, too, have been absent more than present on Babble for the past year. I also have been dealing with the loss of my long-time therapist. I know at least some of what you are going through.
I know. I can never forget your story. Mine is...weirder, for lack of a better term right now. But there are real commonalities as if I remember right for a loooong time you felt your T. was not hearing you about your feelings about ending therapy and she gave mixed (or at least confusing messages). That part is similar, in a way....
> I do want to say that several times over the past few months I have made the assumption from my former T's actions that she didn't really want to have further contact with me, but I was wrong. I say this because you wrote he "seemingly" cut off all contact, which seems to me to be maybe a matter of interpretation.
I wish. It may change, of course. But due a bunch of facts and circumstances I still haven't the energy to lay out in a post here yet, he means it for now. When he recently promised, after our agreed last session (the last of four as part of an agreed "do-over" of his initial, horrible, unwanted + sudden t***in*t**n<<<<< it's a *dirty* word to me) to email me in several weeks just to see how I was doing, he instead wrote:
"Because it is the right thing to do and nothing else would be right,
No more email, no more phone calls, no more explanations."And - that - was - it. Then he left the next day on holiday vacation with family away from his office/home state.
What
the
hell
ever.> I haven't read all the other responses and no doubt the others have been more helpful than I can pull off at this point, but I do understand and I'm happy to give you a hug.
Nonsense. There's no real helping of this pain, especially when it didn't/isn't going as planned or expected and bewilderment is the main emotion - but *every* response, yours as well, helps me feel less alone, validated and just.....like I'm not the insane one....
>Wish it could be in real life.
Me, too. That sounds wonderful, actually. We ought to form an unfortunate club...if we only had the transporters from Star Trek to beam around and help/comfort each other.> ((((((((10derheart)))))))))
Thank you so much for posting. Can't be fun to revisit and rethink about any of this topic, I know.
MDD (presently in complete remission); ADD-Inattentive type; mild anxiety (not fomally dx'd)
Meds: Strattera 80 mg q day
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