Re: I try to never do this, but....

Posted by 10derheart on December 23, 2010, at 16:21:46

In reply to I try to never do this, but...., posted by 10derheart on December 19, 2010, at 21:52:28

[Warning - disjointed rant that won't make sense]
Really, was that stupid email necessary 6 days before Christmas, you f******** idiot? You *know* what Christmas means to me. And to you, too, I thought. Wouldn't the last thing you'd want to do be to re-traumatize me at this moment? Do I get to "thank" you for partly wrecking my special days by filling them with moments of hiding in bathrooms and cars crying my eyes out over you? Gee.....THANKS. What a special, unique gift.
How was I to know to expect this? We did not talk about this. {Coward} I could have never anticipated this based on all the things we've talked about for almost a year. {Chicken-sh*t} Shame on you, anyway. Where is the T. I spoke to only a few weeks ago? What have you done with him? Why the 100% cut off of responding and the preemptive strike ("no explanations")? It isn't even like you. Whatever you are thinking, it must be compelling to have done this. But....what about MY feelings?
Hope you're having a lovely, carefree time in P******* with your family after you threw me away like garbage and ran away. Happy NY to you, too.
You say staying in touch [at all? ever? some day again? never? what EVER] is now "not right?" YOU and your erratic behavior are what's not right. Can't you see that? Oh no, that's it, we technically and officially had our last session as client and T., so now you are free, free, free of me. {Funny how that would be a good thing when you repeatedly and recently said how much you like knowing me and talking with me, and want very much to know how I am doing, blah, blah, blah)
After all, that's what the precious "rules" say, don't they? That when it's done, it's done. Oh yes, boundary blurring and being my best buddy for years doesn't matter, just pull out the friggin' rules now and hide behind them.
Hope you're deliriously happy with yourself and your "oh-so-ethical" decision.
how can I hate someone so much and love them so much at the same time? It's awful.
MDD (presently in complete remission); ADD-Inattentive type; mild anxiety (not fomally dx'd)
Meds: Strattera 80 mg q day

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