Posted by rskontos on January 7, 2009, at 17:46:32
In reply to New Year, New Rules, posted by Annierose on January 6, 2009, at 18:13:28
Annierose,
Like Lucie, I had a dreaded session, mine was thursday. I hated the time. I hated the day, I hated the session. I never wanted to talk. I thought too I was done with therapy. I tried three times to quit. I made all kinds of reasons, excuses, and tried to bolt. Well, it is good I didn't because we are finally making progress. I can now say things I couldn't say like you. I, at the time of my dreaded thursdays, felt trapped. Now I will blurt things out and we talk. And we joke about how I have nothing to say, yet I talk non-stop the whole time. I am slowly opening up.
My t says it is because of feelings like I will open up I wanted to quit. I think he had something there. He says I will try again to bolt. And maybe several more times. The closer we get to my more deeper buried feelings the more I will try to bolt. His words.
I think how you are feeling is quite ok. So do what you need to for you. You will feel a little unsettled but hey, that is what therapy is all about. And part of it is, I think, that we are not used to doing what is best for us we are more used to thinking about others above ourselves so it feels weird at first. After a time, it feels good.
take care, let us know how it goes.
rsk
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