Posted by lucie lu on October 20, 2008, at 18:40:19
In reply to Re: Just out of sorts, can't understand it » lucie lu, posted by rskontos on October 20, 2008, at 16:31:03
I am certainly not sorry I asked because I like long replies to questions I ask :) Daisy might have said the same, but I did say that the first couple of years of therapy were spent babbling (no offense to this community). I had no idea that the stuff that was really important to say was exactly the stuff I could not imagine actually saying to someone else. I hated going to therapy and sitting there talking about nothing important and making no connection to the person I was talking to, even though he purported to be interested in me. So who was this me he was interested in anyway? And who the heck was he?
What happened was - and I'm not kidding here - that I was watching an episode of Law and Order SVU (Special Victims Unit) and suddenly I was getting upset and actually wanted someone to talk to about it. That was the beginning, and although there was at least another year or two of going back and forth over connecting with my T, the process had begun and that really started the therapy. It sounds to me like you are just about where I was just before that SVU episode - doesn't matter how many years into it you are, when it happens, it just happens. Sounds like your T, like mine, is just sitting there waiting for you to be ready. And I absolutely agree with muffled, writing things out was for the longest time, the best I could do with those things that were so hard to talk about. Maybe start with just honestly listening to what one of the voices is saying and write it down. That is a first step. Then when you're ready you can share it. Hopefully by then you will have written down a lot of things, so you'll have a lot to choose from!
You can lurk if you want, but I like hearing from you :)
Lucie
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