Posted by lucie lu on October 3, 2008, at 15:45:33
In reply to Re: Do you know where your T....?, posted by JayMac on October 3, 2008, at 12:59:47
Hi Jay,
I was rooting for you and hoping your session went well this morning, but the way it went absolutely blew me away! They say that courage is not lack of fear but the willingness to act despite the fear. That's what you did this morning. I was, and am, incredibly moved by your courage. And your openness and caring for your T as well - she must feel lucky to have a client like you, one who is willing to probe painful areas with honesty and compassion. Did you feel your T rose to the occasion, as it sounded? IMO this bodes well for your relationship and an ultimate good outcome from your therapy. I can only repeat - you are awesome, Jay. You have what it takes to heal and move on.
I know how hard it can be to leave after such a session. When it's happened to me, it has felt as if I've been left on the operating table, cut wide open. Sometimes the limitations of the therapy session especially suck, and I know that Ts feel that way too at times like these. Back to the operating table metaphor, have you ever had surgery- even minor, like a wisdom tooth extraction? If not, this may not make sense to you. But if you have, what you experienced this morning may have felt like surgery, and the operation went well but now they have to send you home. They tell you you'll probably have some post-op pain, so they tell you to be very, very good to yourself, take it slow and easy, baby yourself a bit. Let yourself rent that movie you've been wanting to watch, eat chocolates or ice cream (or better, chocolate ice cream!), take a bubble bath, sleep with a hot water bottle. Let yourself recover, give yourself lots of well-earned TLC and pats on the back for getting through a difficult procedure. You can babblemail and post here and get lots of hugs and understanding. Because what you did this morning was great, very hard but a big step forward. You did great, Jay, and you should be proud of yourself for what you were able to do this morning.
Love, Lucie
p.s. Please feel free to babblemail me if you want to talk.
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