Posted by LadyBug on July 2, 2008, at 23:56:33
In reply to Re: Happyflower, I'll answer that for ya ;o), posted by Daisym on July 2, 2008, at 21:08:48
Daisy
You make so much sense to me. I do think something happened with both of us. Why did she say what she did to me, that she gave me too much sympathy when I found out my daughter was pregnant until the baby was born. She felt after the baby was born that she should have made me stand up more on my own. I did the very best I could. As I said, I had so much come down on me in such a short amount that my sadness and grief got out of control.
I do agree with you in the sense the relation can be like a marriage and after time the two people change and are no longer compatible. Things were so good for my T and I for quite a long time. She came to the hospital a year and a half ago when I had my bi-lateral knee replacements. She even came to my home when I got home because she knew I couldn't drive for several weeks. She called me while I was in the hospital to check on me. She brought me a little magnet to attach to my hospital bed and a card. She was so good to me for years and then she turned on me when I was at my worst. She told me she was still committed to our work! Since I have no financial support from my ex-husband I don't have the money to go see her right now. My insurance limits my visits to 25 per year and I've used them.Maybe I'm making more out of this than necessary. She's not stopping me from coming back, money is one big reason right now. Even when my insurance starts over in Sept. I don't know if I can face her again after the way she's made me feel. The last 4 times I saw her were very painful. Is her life too perfect and she judged me and my life to be that I'm a loser? I may never know what she's thinking. I asked her if I never came back what she'd do, and she said, "I'd grieve the loss just as any other relationship I've had."
Oh man, my stomach is going to fall out from stress. I know you have your own stress but I want you to know how much it means to me to have you reply to me. You alway have such wonderful wisdom. I appreciate your support more than you know.
Sometimes I don't want to be me. But I am!
LadyBug
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