Posted by llurpsienoodle on May 14, 2008, at 5:51:27
In reply to Re: I woke up with stupor, posted by rskontos on May 13, 2008, at 21:58:41
> Ll, money is the root of all evil and guilt, I say. It is a hard subject for all. Causes more marriages and friendships to break and it is surprising to me how many people can justify things in the name of it. But don't justify to us you beating yourself up over it.
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>Especially to yourself to over your T who I know would not want you to do this.
I'm projecting that he *does* want to punish me. That way he will fit the mold of (most) other men in my life (h excluded).
>He needs to bill you. Just ask, and say I really need a bill from time to time because the calculator in my head is busted. And laugh and I am sure he will too. That is all. Then pay him what and when you can and he will be ok. I am sure of it.
I hope you're right. This will necessitate having a discussion with him. even if i write him a letter explaining what pain this subject causes for me I will still have to discuss it in therapy.
This is so horrible.
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> Don't send yourself over the edge over this as it is not worth it. Or we will have to send you thousands of cyber hugs as punishment. Seriously, you are doing great, so don't think that you are due for something to happen.
>you really think I'm doing great? It's so easy to forget that , when I'm doing sh*tty. MarriageT has me keeping a journal about when my good days are and when my bad days are. I had smiles for the last 15 days and one frownie yesterday. Part of me feels doomed to always return to a dark place. a place where I cease to will to live, where I want to hurt. WHY? what the hell is the matter with me??!
Well this discussion is probably outside the topic of this thread.
> We all make money mistakes.
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> rsk
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