Posted by scentedgarden on March 6, 2007, at 18:29:15
In reply to Re: Book link.. I've ordered that book from amazon » scentedgarden, posted by LadyBug on March 6, 2007, at 17:17:08
> I've loved reading the book and I hope you gain something from it when it comes and you read it.
** thanks for your support.. I'm hoping this, as well especially as it cost about 40 dollars equivalent >>> lol...should be here by next monday..
> About the pain of termination, my T always tells me it will be bitter sweet.** do you discuss termination even now? and if you don't mind my assking WHY do you discuss it if you don't have to terminate..?
OK, I can't even stand to go there,
***I totally understand this feeling...
worse than a death to me, at least you know someone is gone,
**YEP I agree with this feeling too...
with a termination, you know they are still working etc.
** I wonder which is the bitter and which is the sweet..!!???
I think it's a great topic.
*** OH Yeah... It's a great topic allright... just that no one else in the world knows what it feels like unless they have been in your shoes... I'm British and most people on this small island have never in their entire lives and never will have therapy like we have had...
I know someday I must face this, after 10 years with my T you'd think I could do it.
*** TEN YRS>>> is a long time Ladybug... It must be nearly impossible to leave then...>> I have been trweated on the government service, so we are not like the private sector... and im very very lucky to have had so long >> its a miracle i have been given so much help and work from this service, I just wish I hadn't wasted so much of it by talkaing baout rubbish and avoiding the real issues, and by not facing that the fact was and is that it just had to end one day soon... Its not like I could keep paying her...as it's the national health service, a system I don't think you have in the states... yes you have insurance but its a little different in a way over here... SO IM VERY LUCKY TO HAVE HAD HER AT ALL>>> I mean she says to me that if we were to talk about everyhting I want to talk about that we would we there till 'Kingdom come'...
It triggers abandonment issues with me, big time.
** It is doing it with me as well, and she says she is not rejecting me, the therpay is ending there's a difference...but try telling that to your inner baby child who came alive again in her loving professional care...Oh heck it hurts, and I know you all must be fed up hearing those words...'IT hurts' I'm fed up feeling hurt and going through it and I want to run away from it and stop talkaing about it and reading about it... but i can't... I just simply can't... (tears)
And I love my T!
** I love mine too...!
> Hugs
***Thanks for writing the words hugs..it means more to me than ((()))) lol as i nver really did dig those bracketc for hugs...haha.. se i can be crying one minute and then laughing the next... thats the childlikeness of me.. so precious so fragile ... so pure... trusting and hurting and crying out for her therapist like a baby for her mummy...Thats embarrassing to admit to you and everyone on here...but it's a fair description when i cry of how i feel...
> LadyBug
Hugs to you too
***Scentedgarden
p.s. I guess some people never ever have to go through termination... as they can just keep on paying for the therapist from now until kingdom come...and even for yourself after ten yrs... I don't know how you can say goodbye either..as it's a killer just now for me and i'm no where near ten yrs...But I think it's a credit to you that you're beginning to face up to it and that you're reading about it... thats what i did... I bought a book called...'when to say goodbye to your therapist' among others if anyone's interested let me know and i will get the exact name and author from my book shelves... God bless u
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