Posted by JoniS on February 26, 2007, at 18:17:26
In reply to ^^^please respond to the above, somebody^^^^, posted by sunnydays on February 26, 2007, at 17:05:24
> It hurts so much. It just feels like it's all fake. He said that it probably felt like he was mad at me because his voice wasn't as soft as it is sometimes. Well now I know it's all fake, he can just sound however he wants. I thought it meant he really cared. Now I know I was being stupid again. Why did I trust him? I thought he was so nice.
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> sunnydaysSunnydays,
It's not all fake! You are hurting and understandably so, but he does care about you, it's obvious from your previous posts and how you've described some of your sessions. Your T is very strict about boundaries, and they aren't as wide as some of the other T's whose clients have posted here. You have to be honest about your progress and know that it has not been fake.
I will just tell you that even though my T has strict boundaries too, he wouldn't push me when I was already down. I think that is a little odd. It could indicate that he has feelings he's not comfortable discussing. Another thing to think about is that Ts are human too, and unfortunately, they can (and do) make mistakes even when we are fragile.
When I think back about the times that I didn't feel well connected with my T, I realize that often he was distracted with whatever was going on in his life. (not that he should get distracted, but he is human)
Please take care of yourself. Do something for YOU! Relaxing bath with candles and music - all by yourself, or read a good book or ... you know what you like.
God's comfort and blessings to you :)
JoniS
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