Posted by muffled on February 4, 2007, at 21:58:53
In reply to Re: Shhhhh » muffled, posted by littleone on February 4, 2007, at 20:27:06
> You sound very tough and protective. I'm glad muffled has someone to protect her.
*Ya you got THAT right. Sometimes I wannna try an scare T, to see if she scared of me, cuz if she ISN'T then I know she strong too. But I not allowed...
> You can skitter away from rememberings. You don't have to look at them until you feel ready to. That can be ages away still if you want. Just try not to skitter away from your T. I know your job is to be tough and protective and you don't need anyone, but things can feel a little easier if you let your T help you (that doesn't mean you *need* her, you can just let her help is all).
*ya, I LIKE T, she makes me melt :) She pretty tough i think. Sometimes she talk tough at me and I laugh and laugh. Cuz what she don't know, is that she TALK tough, but I SO WAY tougher in a fight. I could beat her up, but I never would, she would just talk tough at me if I tried and i would melt and laugh and laugh!!!!
> Keep telling her over and over. In different ways from different parts. She sounds like a smart T - if she doesn't understand she'll pick it up. Although she might already understand but just not be talking about it. It would probably help to check with her about what she understands.
*I think she SOOOO careful. She make ME say stuff thats important me stuff. She talk LOTS cuz I don't talk much, but she TEACHES me stuff lots, but its for me to say me stuff, she won't say. I think thats a good thing. I don't want her saying stuff I don't want her to say.
> I don't know why you can't go there, but I know I have a lot of trouble letting younger parts express themselves because I am so scared of their feelings. And even if I try really really hard to let them out, I must be very very scared inside still because they stay blocked but screaming.****EXACTLY< EXACTLY>EXACTLY!!!!!!She CAN'T talk, this is what I say. Big noise no sense just BAM nothing nothing nothing. I am not afraid, but nothing can be said. I dunno why.
> Just be patient with yourself and keep working at it and maybe try soothing parts in the meantime. I found it soothing even just writing out my list of soothing things.
**Soothing, is same as nurture? I not so sure bout stuff like that. Sides, that dam kid, she just forever NEEDS it seems, nothing will EVER satisfy her, we TRY, but we SICK of her.
> I don't know - I'm pretty chicken. I've seen my T for almost 3 years and have only glanced at him once (when he fell asleep). It took me almost all that time to start talking to him and even now I don't say much really at all. Little tiny maggots make me scream and cry and run away. I bet you'd stomp on maggots.
*He fell asleep!!!! OMG!!!! He not scared of you then!!! :-)
If you ever get bad maggot stuff then I can stomp them for you. I not scared of NOTHING. If you get scarey thots of them I will get them for you.
Thank you, you are helping me think lots. I think I show some of this stuff to T. We never got enough time...
I think you are very brave telling your T stuff. You got brave parts to do this.
Muffled
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