Posted by muffled on February 3, 2007, at 12:06:07
In reply to Re: And the honest truth, posted by Declan on February 2, 2007, at 20:28:43
I think I kinda freaked bout T going away, then I not get to see her this week and was dissapointed. And i been at home and sick, and I been trying to solve all my bad kidss probs while sick. I want to be all better B4 T goes so she don't goto worry bout me. So I get myself all built up, and then I get sick, and all the crap I been telling myself bout that kid and how it was just mebbe a bad anethetic drug trip when she had her tonsils out, well it just made her upset, and it all fell apart....
I did lv T a message but it was garbled and she got it mostly wrong. I wanted her to say she cared bout my bad inside kid but she said in message back that 'someone' cares bout my 'people'????????????????????? and she said as how when we feel sick physically then it makes everything harder. And her voice sounded funny, and now I worried that mebbe her kid is sick as she has a chronic illness :( and thats why her voice changed when she said bout being sick.
I want so much to be better, and sometimes I feel SO much better, but then I get messed up, but this is the WORST in awhile. And now its the weekend and T is dead to me on weekends. And I been going thru my list of what to do in crisis, but I running out of options.....
And its hard, I can't just curl up and dissapear cuz I got IRL kids that need me. And its so hard.
So I got the guts to get my T to leave message but its WRONG and NOT GOOD.
This is long, so I shut up,
Thank you to all for support suggestions and just being there cuz I feel so bad, I almost feel like I could have waterineye.
It will get better again, I KNOW this.
Just so sucks right now :(
Muffled
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