Posted by kerria on November 13, 2006, at 18:51:15
In reply to Re: Well, I'm not rejecting you Kerria, » Phillipa, posted by Phillipa on November 13, 2006, at 18:01:23
Thank you Phillipa.
No there is not sharing of emails or anything like babble mail there.
i'm not blocked from going there - but i'm afraid to go there because no one is sorry that they said the mean things and anyone can write to me. i was posting when a friend- thank God that i have some friends there - only a small few of the people i thought were my friends. The rest are so against me:(
it hurts still - i'm a mess still. i was writing in the Member to Member - a friend wrote to me there and some friends wrote so i could communicate with them but the moderstor closed the thread:( saying that we shouldn't talk about the thread- we weren't anymore- but she closed the thread anyways. i can't understand why- we were not discussing the thread where i was attacked. my friend changed the subject even saying we wouldn't talk about it. She still closed the thread.
i'm, too afraid- there's so much pain there- so much negativity towards me - why? i never was negative to anyone.
tears.
Why is everything so hard for me?
tears,
someone talked to me- sent babblemail here to me and i thought that the Member to Member thread wasn't closed- that the moderstor just warned us just in case anyone brought it up again- i don't know why it would be off limits to me to discuss it- i wasn't the one who said anything wrong- i only defended myself, reminding how i was always supportive of everyone there. and why are they doing this to me?Phillipa, i saw the new T today- i was so so late- i was upset because of the babblemail i got and took time answering it- over 30 min late of an hour and a half appt.
New T was ok- it felt so bad and impersonal to sign all the stupid papers you have to sign- my life is all apart and i have papers about all the rules and regulations of therapy.
i'm in so much need for a T to help me:(
i wish i wasn't late but it doesn't help to wish or do anything - i get lost- whatever will happen anyways- i wish i were someone elsewith a capacity to do therapy.tears
kerria
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