Posted by ElaineM on September 11, 2006, at 22:16:52
In reply to Re: :-) X2, posted by caraher on September 11, 2006, at 18:36:55
>>> So what means is he using? Vague, yes, but the broad outlines of what you meant are clear...
Maybe not so clear. Sorry, I didn't mean to sound so vague-sensational, I was aiming for more vague-"going through a bout of 'being discovered' anxiety."
>>> It's also worth noting that "the ends justify the means" I usually perceive as a statement meant to be false. Can unjust means truly further a just cause? Probably not!
Oh, it's definately not "unjust". He made a very kind and generous offer. He is giving me tuition so I can go back to ladyDoc. ((((((((LadyDoc))))))))) I miss her so much -- More than anything. She was like a Physician + T. And he wants me to get to be with her again. (((((T)))))-- he's so nice. I'm a jerk cause he has no idea that he'd be sending me back to someone I've spilled my guts to. I want to see her again. I want her helping me through my physical stuff. I want someone to talk to again. I want my "knower" back. But I also care for T. I just couldn't use his money that way -- use it to hurt him in a way. But CC is there too....I WANT MY HELPERS BACK! :( I want them and him at the same time.
....I'm not sure I can say Yes (even though I want to more than anything) cause I'd NEVER be able to pay him back....though he did say that it was a gift. But it hurts too much to say No. He mentioned this a little earlier in the summer and I said No then, and I thought my heart was going to break. But now I don't think I can stand it. School has started, and now I'm not part of that world (or any world really), and it's been so long since I've seen her, and I only trusted her to look after me medically and do procedures on me.....it's bad enough that I have to spend so much time with the dentists so near.....I miss her soooo much - I feel like an orphan.....But it's such a large, awkward amount of money - though he said it was nothing to him, financially. He's trying to take care of me and I'm so bad to him :( I wish I had someone else's brain so I could make up my mind. It's only one course.
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