Posted by ElaineM on September 5, 2006, at 23:03:45
In reply to Re: me's, posted by muffled on September 5, 2006, at 0:37:26
***I too had the problem of caring bout others and stressing myself out. My T has been trying to explain to me as how you can 'come alongside' someone in their pain. But you don't take on their pain, cuz that don't help them any, and hurts yourself.
>>I don't think I understand that part. I've heard that phrase about "not taking on" another's pain, and my head doesn't get it. I think I need to give and receive tears. Nothing but tears are enough for me -- like I need them to validate my suffering or something. Seeing LadyT have a tear in her eye was like having a wound start to heal. I think that's why my T now changed to be more overt -- it is what I always ask for. I'm not trying to take blame, I'm just saying that I always ask for emotional proof.
***I think your words are fine. How can you write coherant words when you can scarcely form a coherant thot? I wonder if some meds to slow things down for you and give you a bit of a break might help?
I'm going to either take dissolving ativan, or something else. He said I have to fill the prescription myself cause I don't think docs are allowed to look like they are writing their own prescriptions. But it's supposed to work faster than regular stuff -- which hasn't worked enough for me in the past. I'm scared of pills though (EDpdoc wanted me to try seroquel after I finished mega-dosing on prozac but I said I was done with meds) -- plus i've tried a bunch of different things and they said I seem somewhat resistant to regular doses. Maybe I don't have anything chemical to treat, I don't know. Anyways, I'll try the different ativan, or the other thing. I don't care which.
***If you are feeling really desparate, is there any chance you could admit yourself(always better to self admit than to be comitted),to hosp. to get stabilized?
>>>I don't think I'd ever do that -- they're too scary here. But today T did the most wonderful thing. He found me a new doctor! (((T))), (((doctors)))). I was so scared not to have one, and sooooo sad losing LadyDoc, who I loved and trusted. And he talked to his colleague (who already has a full practice) and asked if I could have a spot. T said that's he's sent two other patients to this physician, and that he thinks of him very highly. I'm a little scared cause it's not a lady but I am so grateful. I needed one badly. And now if I go see CC once more I can tell her not to worry about me not having one, cause now I do.
Muff, you are amazing. You are so friendly and easy to talk with. I'm glad I have met you.
EL
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