Posted by pegasus on June 23, 2006, at 9:13:06
In reply to the day after, posted by ElaineM on June 22, 2006, at 16:35:07
Elaine,
I've been following your situation, and I just wanted to say how dismayed I was about what happened to you when you went to your doctor's appointment. It was one of the hardest things I've read on babble. I'm really glad that you shared with us what happened, because when you went to the appointment, I was checking back all the time to find out what happened. I think you showed a lot of courage, and I was proud of you for getting to a place where you were planning to talk to your doctor, despite all of your anxiety and second guessing, and all of it. I know how it is to be so so so attached to your therapist, and it's a BIG deal to talk about any aspect of it to anyone outside of the relationship. Much less what you were going through. When I read your post after the appointment, I wanted to be able to jump through the screen to be with you, and call your doctor for you, and help you get throught the next couple of days.
I think it's totally understandable that you would be depressed now. I know that feeling of living in slow motion. Like you're under water, or more like molasses. It's not uncommon to have a bout of depression after a big anxious thing like you've been through.
And . . . I agree with everyone here that if you can find a way to talk to someone (your doctor, another therapist) about what's going on with your therapist, that seems like a good thing. It seems like you really need someone (besides babble) to talk to about this. I agree that some of the things you've described make me concerned for you. A good therapist is supposed to always consider the client's best interests first in therapy, and it sounds like your therapist has lost his way with that.
many hugs
peg
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